[[MORE]]How do I throw away these items that represent something that used to exist. Things that remind me that I spent a portion of my year loving someone that isn’t a part of my life anymore. All the effort and time spent into every single one of these items that just bring back a pain and help me realize that maybe I should have never gotten caught up in it all. “Ideal” is the...
[[MORE]]I want to be alone, and I am okay with the idea of being by myself. I’m not sure why I ever felt like I needed someone else to be the root of my happiness. I’m pretty dumb for thinking so. Too scarred for anything.
It took me 10 seconds to see the flaws in that relationship. Sigh, now I understand why all of that happened. Stay strong, man.
I’m glad we aren’t that close anymore. Good riddance because you just end up always being upset and bitter.
Things seem to be going right for now. Everything is falling into place just like how it should. It’s so nice to be distracted from all the stress of next week with AP tests and finals.
[[MORE]]Ya bimbo. Why do you do this? I can’t handle it anymore. I am mentally exhausted to the point where I just sit and hide so everything can go away. Being good enough is never an option because being the best is something I’ll always have to aim for.
Anonymous asked: you are my nigga and you will always be my nigga. I'm honestly going to miss you next year, but that's okay. I know we'll stay connected because we are trill.
Anonymous asked: Why does everyone put you on a pedestal? You are not as great as everyone thinks you are. It was a good thing your girlfriend broke up with you because she could do way way way better.
People using my pictures makes me the happiest because I know I did something right. ok i am ridiculous, lzozlzozl. ^___^
Anonymous asked: I'm sorry to hear that, especially since I've literally sensed you up close succeeding. My memory is eating me up right now, but I feel my relation to you was cut off without me knowing, and I don't know what I did wrong. I was just hoping to know if I ever made a "positive difference" in your life. There's no need to answer this here, I'm just curious of what...
I wish I had a better understanding of the human nature. hmm…
Anonymous asked: TumblrBot surely interested me in checking up on you for the first time in a long time. 3.5 years later and you're on top of your game; I wonder how you did it...
Raging headache and still staying up to do what I enjoy the most. lovely. absolutely lovely.
[[MORE]]This habit of checking my watch makes it seem like I’m always paranoid. I think I’m just waiting for something amazing to happen and then I’ll know the exact time. I like exact times like 3:59 or 2:37. The precision pinpointed down to the exact minute makes me happy. I am not entirely sure why, but knowing that I would sleep at 3:46 or 3:51 makes me feel like I have...
Anonymous asked: Dawg your bokeh is so fine, how old is it. Can I holla?
Fucking tired of you already. How the fuck are you going to bring up shit like that when it doesn’t even have anything to do with you? You’re so caught up in your own little world that you think doing shit like that is acceptable. Sigh, I have a headache. I should have just gone to UCLA.
I’m pretty sad I can’t take the AP Econ exam this year. I truly enjoy the topics we learn in class so much that it might even push me toward a career in economics. Sadly, fees build up and completely limit what I can accomplish. Sigh, it’s okay though! Hopefully I can help other kids in our class pass the exam. n___n
And it begins again
[[MORE]]It’s going to get worse, sigh.
Thank you for the tie. I’ve always needed this specific color. I wonder what you would have thought about how it looked on me. How silly everything was back then.
In all honesty, these prom pictures make me depressed as hell. It reminds me of a time that could have been, should have been, and would have been. I wanted to be the kid with cute prom pictures with the cute girlfriend. It would have been nice because I would have had my camera for that moment. The only thing people know me for: my camera. I guess when it all ended, all I was to you was a camera...